Well I must confess ... I have been neglecting my blog completely for the last few weeks. Don't really know why ... although the following might have something to do with it:
After the Summer Ball it all seemed to have hit me in the face ... I really lacked the energy to do any of this anymore: I was feeling bad of not being proud of who and where I was in life, I was feeling ignored and couldn't make the effort anymore of doing any kind of smalltalk with students or their partners, and I was feeling like there were only a few people on this planet that understood how it felt for me, I couldn't just talk about this with my friends at home because to be honest, I wouldn't even know how to begin explaining ... of course I mostly feared they would say I was crazy of doing all this. So safe to say June didn't start that well for me :-)
So I tried to 'cure' myself by driving back and forth to Belgium every weekend and spending time with my friends and family. And I tried to avoid campus, party's, ... as much as possible in the few days a week that I was here.
In Dutch we have this saying which if you translate it says "the last of the lead weighs the heaviest" which sounds pretty stupid if you translate it ;-) but anyway it means that even though the end of this crazy Insead year was approaching it seemed harder for me to cope with it and time seemed to crawl by.
Well somehow being back in Belgium, going out with friends (people dó like me), doing my own job interviews (people actually àre interested in what I studied and achieved so far), looking for a new car ... aaahhh life felt good again :-)
We've figured out we will live in Brussels after this and the past weekend I haven't only found a new (secondhand) car, we also found a duplex in Brussels we're crazy about ànd I signed my contract with Atlas Copco (starting July 28) as if this isn't great enough, we're also going to Marrakesh in less than a week with Alice & Jon, me and Wim will be doing our 'Road Trip the 3rd' (and they're always great and memorable no matter where we will end up) ànd we're also going to the Provence right before I start to work ... so even though the month started off like sh** ... it's ending great :-)))
(I've tried the Lottery immediately when all this luck was overcoming me ... but so far no luck in this particular area ;-) )
Even though I've made some true friends here ... with who I just know I'll keep in touch for years to come, I'm sooooooo looking forward to my life after Insead ... ME + WIM + "NORMAL" LIFE: I've really got a good feeling about all of this, even my own blog-Christal ball thinks so
:-)))
